“I have been sobbing this morning for the dignity of humanity, because alone in my room, no one can see my tears, the pain of a mother who blames herself for failing this world by not getting the messages out in time.”-me, November 14, 2016, 12:37 pm
There was a time when you could have powered a large city off the guilt I felt for not writing sooner about what a fraud Trump was - for not pressing send on my first anti-Trump column until September of 2016, on the day I learned he would win.
I was a longtime member of the media in the second biggest market in the country, and it was a dereliction of duty that I didn’t go public sooner. I was living my best life at the time, and had left newsrooms behind.
But once I did go public, I wrote fast and furious, spitting out dozens of posts, hoping to sway the wind.
It’s funny to think I fought the war on Tumblr, with a naked surfing avatar. It’s kinda perfect.
The post I am reading you today reflects the despair I felt as a mother, alone in her room, in a home that had grown cold.
“I’ve been told I have’t smiled since Tuesday. I’ve spent the morning being comforted by strangers.”
I turned increasingly to Twitter to find a support community, and a woman in Massachusetts rescued me on that day.
Have a listen.
CW: It’s a weeper.
To read the print version of The Kindness of Strangers, please go here.
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